...some thoughts

How difficult is it to get angry at someone for something as trivia as talking? Apparently not very hard. It washed over me suddenly, not unlike a tidal wave, as my over-active imagination would put it. Perhaps I've been supressing my annoyances towards her once too often, that's why it came around and bite me in the ass at my most vulnerable. I never profess to be an angel anyway, and I'm certainly no pushover.

Assignments, deadlines, expectations... life can really slip past a person when he does not make a conscious effort to incorporate down time into his busy schedule. Sometimes I wonder, do we really run our lives, or do our lives run us? This is the time when my brain gets really scrambled and a lack of sleeping hours does not help much. So good night! or good morning/afternoon/evening whenever.

Even on a day like this when you're crawling on the floor
Reaching for the 'phone to ring anyone who knows you anymore
It's all right to make mistakes, you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Staring at the same four walls, have you tried to help yourself
The rings around your eyes they don't hide, that you need to get some rest
It's all right to make mistakes you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breath and choose your moment
Don't slide
Even at a time like this when the morning seems so far
Think that pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all
It's all right to make mistakes you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breath and choose your moment
Don't slide
You brought this on yourself and it's high time you left it there
Lie here and rest your head and dream of something else instead
Don't slide.

by Dido

Such a beautiful day...

and people are at war over in Lebanon with a ceasefire no where near in sight as Israel changes its war commander and broadens its offensive. The picture perfect setting of clear blue skies dotted with white puffy clouds only serves to illustrate the irony of the situation. Really makes me wonder how this fighting will end. Hope it doesn't end in an Iraq situation when foreign occupation just makes it worse and worse, and the ones paying for it are the innocent civilians who just want to get on peacefully with their lives and end up as cannon fodder in this power struggle

I put a spell on you

It’s official: I’m in love. Finally!!! After 23 years of pining and yearning for that adrenalin rush that you get when you’re abso-fucking-lutely in love to dash into my life and save me from my drudgery, I was almost ready to give up when it happened tonight.
It started the moment the lights warmed the stage.
The dance gods from Complexions Contemporary Ballet, outfitted in sexy deep red, made time stood still with their raw energy and evident technical prowess which they rightly took full advantage of. The beauty of their performances – it was a full-on two-hour show with two intermissions, which sounds like a lot, until you see how much happened in just the first half hour – lies in the choreography, which was evocative and aptly put to the awesome Jim Hendrix rendition of the U.S. anthem Star Spangled Banner.
There are several moments in life when your breath is simply taken away. This was exactly what my dream company would look like, only this is real and in the flesh. The pairing of the couples was astute and spot-on in most instances, which tells a lot about the choreographer’s finely-tuned visualization and intuition. A lot of what transpires during the performance can hardly been done justice with the ordinary tributes of “amazing”, “spectacular”, “moving”, “inspiring”, “fascinating”. In a word, they’re just abso-fucking-lutely amazing.
If you ever need a reason to attend a dance performance even once in your life, at least go to one of this company’s before you die. And I am dead serious. This is one company which truly embraces and knows its dancers well, so well that their strengths became rapidly obvious in just a few moments. Their individual styles are diverse to the point of starkness. Some stood out with their precise sharpness in execution and interpretation of the dance, while others remain content to just enjoy the movements and indulge in their faculties.
There are always shortcomings in every company and in this case, Complexions manage to turn them into showcases of their hard work. Some are really great actors; they can make you laugh, sympathize or leap with joy with them. Others are better at conveying through their bodies, saying it best with their fluid and supple limbs without missing a beat. Nina Simone nailed what I was feeling when I finally haul my ass out of my seat long after the final applause when she sang “I put a spell on you”. I miss them already…